On my knees at your feet…
On my knees… again.
I sincerely wish you all the best.
I wish you genuine happiness…. the type of happiness & contentment I was clearly was not capable of giving you.
I wish you smiles, sunshine and most of all I wish you peace.
I hope one day, when you find that person to replace me… you treat her well.. that what you apply what you learned from us, from our relationship.
I was able to let go because I loved you all that much — because your heart no longer wanted me. Your heart wanted to pursue so many different things.
This is your chance, as much as you think or say you regret it.. you know this is ultimately what you wanted.
I’m done with telling myself “I should’ve known better”.
Honestly.. I hope you find what your heart desires and that you take care of it when you do find it.
Sincerely,
Me
There’s a heart that must be
Free to fly
That burns with a need to know
The reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me
I’m forced to hide?
I won’t pretend that I’m
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
"The saddest part of a broken heart
Isn’t the ending so much as the start
The tragedy starts from the very first spark
Losing your mind for the sake of your heart"
— Feist, Let it Die (via helenmelimelon)
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
When people lose a limb or get it amputated, they experience a condition called “phantom sensation”.
By definition:
Phantom Sensation is the feeling that the limb still exists after having it amputated. Sometimes this feeling can be painful. That is called phantom pain. The joint closest to the part that is amputated loses its range of motion, making it hard to move.
You are like the limb I got amputated. Sadly… still feeling your presence in my life. The sad reality of waking up to what could have or what should have been. A brief moment when I realize just how much you meant to me and how much it hurts to know that deep down, a part of me still misses you. This “phantom pain” is a constant reminder of how I wanted it to be YOU so badly. How wrong it was for me to think of you that way. How stupid and naive I was.
Feeling your presence is the hardest part of my day. I go through withdrawal of the person that I loved. The person who I fell so madly inlove with who I would give the world to - no who I gave the world to. A person that never existed.
A one-sided relationship. A relationship that I thought had so much potential to grow. I sit on my bed, for ten minutes, I listen to my heart …aching, beating, crying…telling me to let it go.
“Now that she had nothing to lose, she was free.” - Paulo Coelho
